This is pretty self-explanatory, here I will write random articles, free for you to read. Well, be aware that writting isn't my strongest point, i'm pretty bad at it :') and i yap a lot about random useless stuff. You should probably read this only in case of extreme boredom.
So... This is the last day of 2024. So much yet so little happened (to me) This year. I'm not going to talk about what happened in the world. We already know it all, and honestly, it's good sometimes to turn off our brains and stop thinking about misery for a bit. This year has been, interesting, for the least. This is my first year being fully out of school- even tho I still had a job (for only 2 weeks on two different months. I can't do more than that.).
I guess this year was my experimentation year? I started the year with a new tablet (for pc, I usually draw on an android tablet), tried out clip studio and did draw some amazing stuff. Honestly I don't draw at my pc that much, my back hurts really fast when I sit down, but I got a new chair so it should make things easier for me now. I also made this website- I've always wanted to have a personal blog/website kind of thing, but when I was at school, I never had the time and strength to do it. Like pretty much all of my other hobbies? I've always loved drawing, but I didn't draw that much because school was draining me so much. I wanted to learn HTML but never did because I was so damn tired. Same thing about crafting, and making my fursuit... I had the idea of making one for over a decade, but never did, because I was just exhausted. But now that I'm free from school... I'm so happy.
I won't talk about it too much but it also improved my mental health so, so, so much. Honestly, I don't know how I'm supposed to survive in this world, I can't work because I'm too weak, and I also don't want to because I don't want to give up on my hobbies. Things I've been wanting to do for years and years, but I kept pushing back because I was so tired I couldn't even get up in the morning some days... Man, all I want in life is to do my silly hobbies, I don't care about being rich and shit, I just want to be free to sleep and draw whenever I want without anyone waking me up at 6am. Anyway. That's how the year went for me. The only downside of not going to school anymore I would say is that I don't really have friends irl and I don't go out. But also, being trapped everyday with the same people was also, exhausting. But I'm working on it, I'm going to conventions and meetings to see people and hopefully get new friends.
I can also see that my art improved, compared to the other years, and I did try other artstyle and all. The annoying part was, again, social media falling apart because of AI. Instagram always has been horrible on me, since I'm not regular enough with my posting schedule, so, I'm constantly shadow-banned. I only get 10 likes per post, even tho I have almost 800 followers, which, isn't normal at all. But I stopped carrying. I'm trying to move to Bluesky. I just suck at social media, I always forget I need to be active in order to get reach. But I hate being always online, commenting and all, I just kinda want to sit in my corner... But yea. At least I got 100 followers pretty quickly... Hopefully it stays like that for 2025, I would love to finally have reach so I can get a little bit of money from selling commissions and maybe have a shop. I would absolutely love to make custom OC/fursona keychains... That would be so cool and would help be a bunch since I have no money in my name lmao.
But yea. I'm not someone who takes new year's resolutions because I know damn well I will forget about them, so each year, I just give myself the simple goals of trying to draw more than the previous year, practice and improve as much as I can. I think that's it. If you're reading this, I wish you a happy New year, and let's hope things change for the better, even if it looks not so promising. The most important is to hold on and survive the best we can, and fight for our rights. Don't forget that your voice matters.
Hi, this is my first journal entry. I was gone for a while, but it was for a good reason. Like I said in the title, but also in a few other places, during the whole month of October and most of November, I was making a fursuit (boooooo cringe!). This is something I've always wanted to do, ever since I got online ten-ish years ago. Maybe even before? Well in elementary school, I was really passionate about the idea of one day having an animal costume that was a lot more than just cat ears and a tail. I wanted a full suit, like a mascot... But less terrifying. (Yes, I hate mascots, and that's why I hate Disneyland.) Then, when I was around 8 and I fell into the unregulated internet trap, I got captivated by furries. Even before my online journey, I already was doodling characters that were anthropomorphic animals. As a kid, the only books I've liked were things like Warrior cats or Wings of fire, where the characters are animals who speak and have whole societies. I don't know, I just never could relate or even appreciate stories about humans.
Anyway. So, when I was online, I remember seeing a clip about furries. It was a clip from a news channel in my country, and they were talking about this "new phenomenon" of people wearing full suits of colorful animal characters. And man. Ever since this day, I've wanted one thing: having a fursuit. It took me a whole decade to finally do it. But it's for good reasons; it's been a year now since I dropped out of uni (thankfully they're free in my country so we didn't waste any money). My mental health is slowly getting restored, i can finally sleep however long I want, and most importantly, I have all the time in the world. This is why I'm finally accomplishing some of my dreams. Honestly, this website is part of these dreams; as a kid I remember messing around website making platforms and making shitty little blogs. And it's the same with the fursuit.
In September, I remembered there was this convention coming into my city around the end of November. And I didn't do any cosplay this year, and since I'm not really into any fandom... I thought... Why not finally make a fursuit?... Well my fursona would be hard and expensive to make, a snow leopard/shark/dragon thing, with a lot of different shades of grey, green and yellow... So I made another fursona, an eel, and kept the palette and design simple. And then I worked on it. Now, I don't have (and can't have) A job, and I live with 50€ a month that my parents are nice enough to give me. This isn't a lot, but thankfully my family was okay to help me a little money-wise. My motivation was also the amount of "making my first fursuit without experience" Videos I keep seeing popping up in my recommendation.
It gave me determination to finally do it. And so I did. The process was long, I didn't encounter some icks, and I never sewed in my life before, but a few days before the convention, I was done. It's not a full suit, only a partial, because a full body suit would be extremely expensive with the fur and foam, I do not have that money at all, and didn't have the time, but maybe one day I'll make it. If you're interested, the full process is both on my Artfol and on my Tumblr.
I'm so proud of it. Some things I could have done better, but I think it's a good one for my first ever attempt without any knowledge in the fursuit making world.
And the conventions were fun! I went to two, and I'll go to a furwalk in my city soon. So many people came talk to me and ask about it, and many were impressed when I told them it was my first attempt! I'm so damn proud ^^ and it's also a good opportunity to finally go out and meet people! There's a furbar in my city as well, I'll try to go some day and maybe finally make some irl friends, since I'm starting to feel lonely. I can't wait to see what the future awaits for me and my furry journey.
